After too many stops and starts, too many different blogs and other things. I am admitting that I need help. And I don't mean Weight Watchers. I can't do this anymore. I have too addictive of a personality and have become addicted to food, drink, computers, just about everything that isn't healthy.
I have scheduled an appointment with therapist. I bought a workbook.
I made a good step today. I walked 3.3 miles. for that I am immensely proud of myself.
I stepped on the scale today and almost cried. I am within 4 pounds of my heaviest weight ever. I told myself that I would never let myself get this far, and I did.
I feel horrible about myself. I hurt all the time.
Goodbye Mommy Morning Drinks (my one energy drink), hello green tea
Goodbye Wine/Beer/Hard Liquor - if I don't quit now, I won't have a liver, I will end up with tremorous hands like my dad, a recovering alcoholic.
Hello living a spiritual life to reconnect with God.
Hello to more herbals than pharmaceuticals.
Hello to the new me, a work in progress, but, with time, I need to feel better.
BTW - to be perfectly honest - I weigh 290.3 pounds - over 100 pounds overweight. I may never get to the perfect BMI, but who cares.
