Week 2 is done and I am very happy to report I've lost another 4 pounds! Yay for me!!!! Also a shout out to Thalassa, Bernie and Sandy for also losing this week, great job ladies. Originally I weighed in and they said I'd lost 8, but the scale was off and I re-weighed. Still, I am happy with my four!
Today started as a pretty good day, went to work at one of my part-time jobs and wasn't happy about something there and learned some more depressing news and my day really spiraled from there. But, it is a campus in the middle of nowhere and I didn't have any coins to raid the candy machine, so I am happy to report I drank mucho water instead. The long drive to WW though, I just fumed and stewed about everything and was in a really cruddy mood by the time I got to the meeting. I talked to Thalassa, which helped, got a hug from Bernie and Sandy, which also helped.
By the time the meeting got started, the four of us were like a gaggle of school girls, laughing and texting on our phones AND diligently listening and participating in the meeting. I got a BRAVO sticker for inviting my friends to read my blog, and I got my very first 5 pound sticker!! Yay!!
So, I am down over 7 pounds and I don't feel much different in my clothes, yet. But, it will get there. I am only 2 weeks into it. Patience, young jedi (I am really not that much of a geek, but I thought it was appropriate.)
Well, kids are down for sleep, and my husband and I have a few precious minutes of quiet time before we both fall asleep in a exhausted slumber. Good night.
PS - Sandy & Bernie - I hope this post wasn't too long, ;-)
Thursday, September 30, 2010
Wednesday, September 29, 2010
McDonald's
I love McDonald's. I hate McDonald's. McDonald's is so bad for you, but it tastes just so dang good. They are so convenient, and so many of them.
I succumbed to temptation tonight, because I did not plan appropriately. I ate a snack before going to teach, I taught, then on the way home, I ate a pear. I thought that would be enough. Well, it wasn't. As I was driving back, I succumbed to the horrible double arches. I almost had enough strength to resist, until my tummy growled.
I ate a McDouble (9 points), small fry (5 points) and a diet coke. And it tasted so GOOD! I will not lie, even my guilt over eating such an high point-value meal could not make the taste of the ooey-gooey goodness of a cheeseburger seem any less than what it was, perfection.
I got home, got to the computer and started my pennance (sp?). I input all the food I'd eaten since I left and realized I ended the day with half point left over. WHAT??? That couldn't be right, could it? I have a half of a point left to eat of my daily allowance. I didn't touch my uh-oh points? I looked over the whole day and realized that I had chosen healthy, low fat, low calorie meals and snacks the whole day. So, I stayed on track even though I felt like I was cheating. But I didn't, I chose well, young jedi.
Okay, I am tired, sorry for the Star Wars reference there. Tomorrow is weigh in day. I'll post how then.
Merry Christmas to all and to all a Good Night
(Wow, I really am tired!)
I succumbed to temptation tonight, because I did not plan appropriately. I ate a snack before going to teach, I taught, then on the way home, I ate a pear. I thought that would be enough. Well, it wasn't. As I was driving back, I succumbed to the horrible double arches. I almost had enough strength to resist, until my tummy growled.
I ate a McDouble (9 points), small fry (5 points) and a diet coke. And it tasted so GOOD! I will not lie, even my guilt over eating such an high point-value meal could not make the taste of the ooey-gooey goodness of a cheeseburger seem any less than what it was, perfection.
I got home, got to the computer and started my pennance (sp?). I input all the food I'd eaten since I left and realized I ended the day with half point left over. WHAT??? That couldn't be right, could it? I have a half of a point left to eat of my daily allowance. I didn't touch my uh-oh points? I looked over the whole day and realized that I had chosen healthy, low fat, low calorie meals and snacks the whole day. So, I stayed on track even though I felt like I was cheating. But I didn't, I chose well, young jedi.
Okay, I am tired, sorry for the Star Wars reference there. Tomorrow is weigh in day. I'll post how then.
Merry Christmas to all and to all a Good Night
(Wow, I really am tired!)
Tuesday, September 28, 2010
I HATE EXERCISE
Exercise is torture!
Some people get an endorphin high and energy after working out. I don't. I don't know what they are talking about. I don't think I have ever felt it. What I have felt is sore muscles, an aching back, and a desire to crawl into bed.
Even when I was younger and healthier and skinnier I hated exercising. Any sort of physical agility test always got my anxiety level up because I was always so close to failing. Especially anything with a timed run in it. (Even now, I am hesitant to take a job that is 19 miles away because they require a 1.5 mile run or 3 mile walk - I don't think so).
I know people who enjoy 100 mile bike rides, 25 mile runs......masochists, that's what they are. I wish I enjoyed physical exercise, but it just makes me tired and sore. Walking, which WW encourages for beginners is B-O-R-I-N-G. Not even iTunes helps. Plus, my neighborhood is so small, I've seen everything around here hundreds of times.
I have tried all sorts of exercise DVDs and gizmos. We own a Wii, Wii Fit, Jenny McCarthy's In Motion (please I really don't want to see my fat lump on TV while I am trying to do jumping jacks.) Even Leslie Sansone walking DVDs. It's hard to do it when I am trying not to trip over all the toys in the living room. I value my sleep too much to wake up early and try to get it in before the kids wake up. Even when I was that motivated, the kids invariably woke up in the middle of it.
It all comes down to the fact that I am a physically uncoordinated lump and it has only gotten worse as I've gotten older. I have no hand/eye / body coordination, and cannot move my body like I want to. I royally suck at Wii games that have anything to do with the balance board. I suck at all games that require me to try to put some type of ball into some type of circle, catch or throw some type of ball with any sort of speed and or accuracy.
I really used to enjoy dancing. When I was younger I would turn the music up really loud and dance, dance, dance. I never had any lessons, because my folks couldn't afford it. Now, I feel too old and too fat to walk into any sort of dance studio and ask to take lessons. Oh, and also, no time and no money also make it pretty hard.
I was good at tackle football when I was younger, as long as I was on the defensive line.
I did earn activity points today though! We took the kids to the Mac Aquatic Center and let the kids swim and splash. I got my points by swimming and pushing them around on a raft while I kicked. I really got my heart rate up.
So, that's it for tonight. I can get rather long winded, but I find this very therapeutic. If you have any suggestions for me for fun activities that are cheap and don't include anything that looks like exercise please let me know.
Some people get an endorphin high and energy after working out. I don't. I don't know what they are talking about. I don't think I have ever felt it. What I have felt is sore muscles, an aching back, and a desire to crawl into bed.
Even when I was younger and healthier and skinnier I hated exercising. Any sort of physical agility test always got my anxiety level up because I was always so close to failing. Especially anything with a timed run in it. (Even now, I am hesitant to take a job that is 19 miles away because they require a 1.5 mile run or 3 mile walk - I don't think so).
I know people who enjoy 100 mile bike rides, 25 mile runs......masochists, that's what they are. I wish I enjoyed physical exercise, but it just makes me tired and sore. Walking, which WW encourages for beginners is B-O-R-I-N-G. Not even iTunes helps. Plus, my neighborhood is so small, I've seen everything around here hundreds of times.
I have tried all sorts of exercise DVDs and gizmos. We own a Wii, Wii Fit, Jenny McCarthy's In Motion (please I really don't want to see my fat lump on TV while I am trying to do jumping jacks.) Even Leslie Sansone walking DVDs. It's hard to do it when I am trying not to trip over all the toys in the living room. I value my sleep too much to wake up early and try to get it in before the kids wake up. Even when I was that motivated, the kids invariably woke up in the middle of it.
It all comes down to the fact that I am a physically uncoordinated lump and it has only gotten worse as I've gotten older. I have no hand/eye / body coordination, and cannot move my body like I want to. I royally suck at Wii games that have anything to do with the balance board. I suck at all games that require me to try to put some type of ball into some type of circle, catch or throw some type of ball with any sort of speed and or accuracy.
I really used to enjoy dancing. When I was younger I would turn the music up really loud and dance, dance, dance. I never had any lessons, because my folks couldn't afford it. Now, I feel too old and too fat to walk into any sort of dance studio and ask to take lessons. Oh, and also, no time and no money also make it pretty hard.
I was good at tackle football when I was younger, as long as I was on the defensive line.
I did earn activity points today though! We took the kids to the Mac Aquatic Center and let the kids swim and splash. I got my points by swimming and pushing them around on a raft while I kicked. I really got my heart rate up.
So, that's it for tonight. I can get rather long winded, but I find this very therapeutic. If you have any suggestions for me for fun activities that are cheap and don't include anything that looks like exercise please let me know.
Monday, September 27, 2010
Much better day today.
Boy, yesterday was rough. From hearing that my aunt wasn't doing well and being sad and worried about that, to my kids being little monsters for most of the day, plus I was a cranky S.O.B. yesterday, I am glad yesterday is over.
Today is a much better day. I slept well, so did the kids. The kids went to daycare and my wonderful husband John took me to the coast today to have lunch and go shopping at the Outlet Mall. I even napped on the ride back home. A very relaxing day, before I have to go teach tonight. I don't know which is worse, putting my kids to bed or dealing with 30 students who range in age from 18 to 53.
So, I didn't do so well yesterday in the comfort foods category. I last blogged that I was going to make a 1 point smoothie, well I didn't. I didn't eat anything, then I got really hungry (bad decision) especially since the kids decided to be little monsters right around dinner time. So, I threw a frozen pizza in the oven. While it was cooking, I calculated the points. It was 7 points a slice and I had 22 points left for the day. So, I splurged at had 3 slices of pizza. Boy was my tummy full. I topped it off with a 1 point beer. (Then another after I got the kids to bed, thus using 1 of my 35 uh-oh points, leaving me with 34 until Thursday).
So, here is the weird thing. I felt like I was cheating on my diet. The pizza tasted soooooo dang good, and washed down with a cold beer. Comfort food at its best. But, I have to keep telling myself to lighten up (well, that is what I am working on), I stayed within my points values, I watched my portion control (the pizza box said it had 8 servings, I cut the pizza into 8 equal slices and ate my 3 slices.) So, I have a strange feeling of guilt for eating "forbidden" food, even though I had the points for it. Weird huh?
Next post - who knows, whatever comes into my mind.
Oh, and a special hello and welcome to my WW friend and fellow journey-woman, Bernie! See you Thursday
Today is a much better day. I slept well, so did the kids. The kids went to daycare and my wonderful husband John took me to the coast today to have lunch and go shopping at the Outlet Mall. I even napped on the ride back home. A very relaxing day, before I have to go teach tonight. I don't know which is worse, putting my kids to bed or dealing with 30 students who range in age from 18 to 53.
So, I didn't do so well yesterday in the comfort foods category. I last blogged that I was going to make a 1 point smoothie, well I didn't. I didn't eat anything, then I got really hungry (bad decision) especially since the kids decided to be little monsters right around dinner time. So, I threw a frozen pizza in the oven. While it was cooking, I calculated the points. It was 7 points a slice and I had 22 points left for the day. So, I splurged at had 3 slices of pizza. Boy was my tummy full. I topped it off with a 1 point beer. (Then another after I got the kids to bed, thus using 1 of my 35 uh-oh points, leaving me with 34 until Thursday).
So, here is the weird thing. I felt like I was cheating on my diet. The pizza tasted soooooo dang good, and washed down with a cold beer. Comfort food at its best. But, I have to keep telling myself to lighten up (well, that is what I am working on), I stayed within my points values, I watched my portion control (the pizza box said it had 8 servings, I cut the pizza into 8 equal slices and ate my 3 slices.) So, I have a strange feeling of guilt for eating "forbidden" food, even though I had the points for it. Weird huh?
Next post - who knows, whatever comes into my mind.
Oh, and a special hello and welcome to my WW friend and fellow journey-woman, Bernie! See you Thursday
Sunday, September 26, 2010
Having a Tough Day
My aunt coded last night. I can't get that thought out of my head. I can't get the thought that we almost lost her last night. If she hadn't had issues with nausea and a headache, she would have been discharged home on Friday. But, she did, so they kept her 1 more night. That 1 more night led to an undiagnosed temporary slowing of her heart. Thank God the doctor's decided to be cautious and keep in her for observation, just one more night. If all that hadn't happened, she would have been sent home and would have died in her sleep.
She woke up in the middle of CPR. They ran tests and diagnosed her with Prolonged Q-T syndrome. For my medical friends out here, you know how scary that is. That she survived into her 60's with that diagnosis. Neurologically she's fine, she is going to get an AICD (pacemaker/defib) tomorrow.
I can't stop crying and thinking what if? What if I had lost my aunt just as we were getting close?
I'm having a tough day, because all I want to do is reach for my comfort foods. But, I don't want to fall back on old habits that got me this fat. Comfort foods won't make this fear go away, and will only lead to getting fatter. So I am trying to find another coping mechanism. I really wish i liked exercise or something physical, but I don't. So I turned to the computer. I turned to my on-line blog and venting my feelings and frustrations over life. Life is going to get hard, I can't always turn to food. I turn to food when I am sad, when I am angry, bored. I celebrate accomplishments with food. Oh, you made it through the grocery store and kept to your shopping list, congrats - you deserve a tasty treat.
You know, if this crappy relationship with food really sucks. If this was a relationship with another human being, I'd just kick the SOB out of my life, but you can't really do that with food, now can you?
The desire for a huge bowl of ice cream just passed. I might make myself a 1 point smoothie instead.
She woke up in the middle of CPR. They ran tests and diagnosed her with Prolonged Q-T syndrome. For my medical friends out here, you know how scary that is. That she survived into her 60's with that diagnosis. Neurologically she's fine, she is going to get an AICD (pacemaker/defib) tomorrow.
I can't stop crying and thinking what if? What if I had lost my aunt just as we were getting close?
I'm having a tough day, because all I want to do is reach for my comfort foods. But, I don't want to fall back on old habits that got me this fat. Comfort foods won't make this fear go away, and will only lead to getting fatter. So I am trying to find another coping mechanism. I really wish i liked exercise or something physical, but I don't. So I turned to the computer. I turned to my on-line blog and venting my feelings and frustrations over life. Life is going to get hard, I can't always turn to food. I turn to food when I am sad, when I am angry, bored. I celebrate accomplishments with food. Oh, you made it through the grocery store and kept to your shopping list, congrats - you deserve a tasty treat.
You know, if this crappy relationship with food really sucks. If this was a relationship with another human being, I'd just kick the SOB out of my life, but you can't really do that with food, now can you?
The desire for a huge bowl of ice cream just passed. I might make myself a 1 point smoothie instead.
Saturday, September 25, 2010
What do I "blog" about?
What to write on my blog tonight.
Do I write about the fact that I am tired because the kids decided to be little pains in the butt last night by getting up multiple times in the night, when I had to get up early and drive to Gresham for a state paramedic test? I was the evaluator, not a candidate; I would never want to do that again. Julie cried in her sleep and woke me up 2 or 3 times. I woke up at 3 and couldn’t fall back to sleep. Jack woke me up at 4 and wouldn’t go back to sleep despite chocolate milk and DVD’s. He didn’t go back to sleep until 6, when I left for the long drive to Gresham.
Do I “blog” about how jealous I am of the 2 women I met there that lost a ton of weight, oddly enough, using WW? I know that they have been at it for 18 months and 2 years, but I am still jealous, because both look FABULOUS!!
Do I “blog” about the fact that I tried to be really good, packed snacky foods and my own drinks? At lunch, I opted for the veggie sub sandwich, instead of the ham sub sandwich? After I got home, I looked up the nutritional info and found that it had a HUGE amount of fat and cost me over 25 points for the day (I only have 33). Who would’ve thought that a veggie sub sandwich with a few slices of cheese and 1 tbsp of mayo (I know it was only 1, because I put it on there myself) would be almost 1200 calories? The ham sandwich had ½ the fat and calories. Grrrrrr!
Do I “blog” about the fact that I earned 1 activity point running up and downstairs at the paramedic test? And I also earned 1 playing with my children, playing kickball and chase for 30 min. That helped offset the 25 point sandwich.
So, I have 4 points left for today. I could have a Smart Ones 4 point meal or I could have 4 – 1 point beers………hmmm, which one am I going to choose? You take a guess……
Do I write about the fact that I am tired because the kids decided to be little pains in the butt last night by getting up multiple times in the night, when I had to get up early and drive to Gresham for a state paramedic test? I was the evaluator, not a candidate; I would never want to do that again. Julie cried in her sleep and woke me up 2 or 3 times. I woke up at 3 and couldn’t fall back to sleep. Jack woke me up at 4 and wouldn’t go back to sleep despite chocolate milk and DVD’s. He didn’t go back to sleep until 6, when I left for the long drive to Gresham.
Do I “blog” about how jealous I am of the 2 women I met there that lost a ton of weight, oddly enough, using WW? I know that they have been at it for 18 months and 2 years, but I am still jealous, because both look FABULOUS!!
Do I “blog” about the fact that I tried to be really good, packed snacky foods and my own drinks? At lunch, I opted for the veggie sub sandwich, instead of the ham sub sandwich? After I got home, I looked up the nutritional info and found that it had a HUGE amount of fat and cost me over 25 points for the day (I only have 33). Who would’ve thought that a veggie sub sandwich with a few slices of cheese and 1 tbsp of mayo (I know it was only 1, because I put it on there myself) would be almost 1200 calories? The ham sandwich had ½ the fat and calories. Grrrrrr!
Do I “blog” about the fact that I earned 1 activity point running up and downstairs at the paramedic test? And I also earned 1 playing with my children, playing kickball and chase for 30 min. That helped offset the 25 point sandwich.
So, I have 4 points left for today. I could have a Smart Ones 4 point meal or I could have 4 – 1 point beers………hmmm, which one am I going to choose? You take a guess……
Thursday, September 23, 2010
First Week's Successes
Well, the First Week of WW is done! Yay! It can only go down from here....the weight I mean! I am very happy to report that I lost a whopping 3.2 pounds. My friend Bernie, whom I met last week, lost 5.6 pounds. Grr, I am jealous, but I am also very happy for her.
She and I are in the same boat. Last weeks meeting was first for both of us. We both had hit the proverbial bottom (or top of the scales). We admitted to each other that we were near tears with how low our self-esteem was, how horrible we felt in our fat bodies. Last week I dressed in a well-worn t-shirt, shapeless bra, ripped jeans, she came dressed in jeans and a frumpy, bulky sweatshirt. We dressed the way we felt, blah, frumpy.
This week was something new. I felt more confident and pretty. I dressed up a little, wasn't hard to go up from where I was last week. Funny thing, so did she. We both were smiling and happy and gushing about how the first week went. Some might call this the honeymoon stage, and it probably is. The hard part will be staying on track in the weeks and months to come.
I am doing this for me. to feel better about how I look and feel. Something our meeting leader Kourtney said today that I think will be this week's mantra - "Nothing tastes as good as skinny feels" I don't know about that, I haven't been skinny in so long and a Big Mac would be really, really tasty tonight. Speaking of Kourtney, she gives us weekly things to think about and do. tonight's lesson was to ask for help. Help on this journey of weight loss.
Who do I ask for help?
My poor husband is sick, stressed out from work that he is going to lose his job if the ballot levy doesn't pass, worried about feeding his family, so I don't want to ask too much of him. Thankfully, though, he is being very supportive and not unintentionally (or intentionally, haha) trying to sabotage me. He is proud of me for doing this, the only thing is he doesn't want me to lose my ta-ta's!
So, if you are reading this, please post a comment or reply and keep them coming!
Next blog - who know? I'm sure I will have something to say.....
She and I are in the same boat. Last weeks meeting was first for both of us. We both had hit the proverbial bottom (or top of the scales). We admitted to each other that we were near tears with how low our self-esteem was, how horrible we felt in our fat bodies. Last week I dressed in a well-worn t-shirt, shapeless bra, ripped jeans, she came dressed in jeans and a frumpy, bulky sweatshirt. We dressed the way we felt, blah, frumpy.
This week was something new. I felt more confident and pretty. I dressed up a little, wasn't hard to go up from where I was last week. Funny thing, so did she. We both were smiling and happy and gushing about how the first week went. Some might call this the honeymoon stage, and it probably is. The hard part will be staying on track in the weeks and months to come.
I am doing this for me. to feel better about how I look and feel. Something our meeting leader Kourtney said today that I think will be this week's mantra - "Nothing tastes as good as skinny feels" I don't know about that, I haven't been skinny in so long and a Big Mac would be really, really tasty tonight. Speaking of Kourtney, she gives us weekly things to think about and do. tonight's lesson was to ask for help. Help on this journey of weight loss.
Who do I ask for help?
My poor husband is sick, stressed out from work that he is going to lose his job if the ballot levy doesn't pass, worried about feeding his family, so I don't want to ask too much of him. Thankfully, though, he is being very supportive and not unintentionally (or intentionally, haha) trying to sabotage me. He is proud of me for doing this, the only thing is he doesn't want me to lose my ta-ta's!
I talk to my best friend, Lori and my mother almost daily. They are great sources of encouragement and are already helping me.
So, who do I ask for help? I pondered to myself. Then it came to me, I'm going to share this blog with more people and ask the people I share it with to help encourage me in my successes and pick me up when I have my setbacks.So, if you are reading this, please post a comment or reply and keep them coming!
Next blog - who know? I'm sure I will have something to say.....
Today is the Day I .....
Today is the day I .......hmmmm. So much to think about today. Today is the day I....weigh in for the first time since on WW. Today is the day for I........ Today is the day I change my life. Today is the day I......
But, today, at least is not about "I"
Today, it's about prayers and thoughts and hugs for my Aunt Jeanne. See, a week or so ago, Aunt Jeanne was diagnosed with a Dural ArterioVenous Fistula. Her neuro doc was surprised when she told him that she had symptoms for the past 6 months. Within a week of being diagnosed, she and my uncle traveled from their rural South Dakota home to Denver, to undergo an intravascular embolization procedure. Brain surgery through the vessels, and it's happening today.
My cousins flew down to be with her, and my mom and her cousin drove to be with them. I am so glad my uncle Skip doesn't have to go through this without family.
As I type this, she is undergoing another angiogram to make sure that they can do the procedure intravascularly instead of a craniotomy. So, even though I am not a religious type, I did put my hands together, bowed my head and prayed.
I also thank God that we've gotten so much closer in the last few years, even though it took a traumatic event.
I love you Aunt Jeanne!
But, today, at least is not about "I"
Today, it's about prayers and thoughts and hugs for my Aunt Jeanne. See, a week or so ago, Aunt Jeanne was diagnosed with a Dural ArterioVenous Fistula. Her neuro doc was surprised when she told him that she had symptoms for the past 6 months. Within a week of being diagnosed, she and my uncle traveled from their rural South Dakota home to Denver, to undergo an intravascular embolization procedure. Brain surgery through the vessels, and it's happening today.
My cousins flew down to be with her, and my mom and her cousin drove to be with them. I am so glad my uncle Skip doesn't have to go through this without family.
As I type this, she is undergoing another angiogram to make sure that they can do the procedure intravascularly instead of a craniotomy. So, even though I am not a religious type, I did put my hands together, bowed my head and prayed.
I also thank God that we've gotten so much closer in the last few years, even though it took a traumatic event.
I love you Aunt Jeanne!
Wednesday, September 22, 2010
My Favorite Sweets
Speaking of unhealthy habits, here is a list of my favorite bad for you sweets:
1. Doughnuts,
a. Krispy Kreme regulars are the ultimate,
b. Entemanns soft baked variety pack
c. Entemanns rich chocolate, refrigerated with milk
d. Franz Chocolate Old Fashioned
2. Chocolate chip cookie dough, raw.......please don't lecture me on the dangers of raw eggs, I took a food microbiology class, I am well aware, but it still tastes sooooo good.
3. Frosting and cake, not necessarily together at the same time. I have been known to bake a cake and eat it without frosting it.
4. White Chocolate - need I say more
5. Ice Cream
a. Tillamook’s Chocolate Mudslide with homemade raspberry jam
b. Ben and Jerry’s New York Super Fudge Crunch
c. Vanilla
d. Mint Chocolate Chip
6. Cookies
a. White Chocolate Chip
7. Brownies
8. Whipped topping – out of the can
9. Caramels
So far I've been doing okay. I haven't used an uh-oh point yet and I ate a yummy, low point meal yesterday - Bear Creek Chili with cornbread and sour cream.
I just hope I can keep this momentum going.
Next post - haven't thought about it - we'll see what pops into my head.
1. Doughnuts,
a. Krispy Kreme regulars are the ultimate,
b. Entemanns soft baked variety pack
c. Entemanns rich chocolate, refrigerated with milk
d. Franz Chocolate Old Fashioned
2. Chocolate chip cookie dough, raw.......please don't lecture me on the dangers of raw eggs, I took a food microbiology class, I am well aware, but it still tastes sooooo good.
3. Frosting and cake, not necessarily together at the same time. I have been known to bake a cake and eat it without frosting it.
4. White Chocolate - need I say more
5. Ice Cream
a. Tillamook’s Chocolate Mudslide with homemade raspberry jam
b. Ben and Jerry’s New York Super Fudge Crunch
c. Vanilla
d. Mint Chocolate Chip
6. Cookies
a. White Chocolate Chip
7. Brownies
8. Whipped topping – out of the can
9. Caramels
So far I've been doing okay. I haven't used an uh-oh point yet and I ate a yummy, low point meal yesterday - Bear Creek Chili with cornbread and sour cream.
I just hope I can keep this momentum going.
Next post - haven't thought about it - we'll see what pops into my head.
Tuesday, September 21, 2010
I LOVE FOOD
As the title suggests, I love food. I love the different tastes, textures, and flavors. I will never turn down food. My favorite foods, in preference order, is sweet, savory, spice, and salty. I despise bland food, especially bland "healthy" food.
I come from a long line of "emotional eaters." We eat when we are happy, sad, depressed, bored, excited. We celebrate with food, we console each other with food. We comfort ourselves with good old-fashioned comfort food. The food that our great-grandparents made and passed the recipes down, despite the fact that the recipes called for sticks of butter and pan-frying. The light and healthy foods just don't satisfy that deep-down need for comfort through food.
I have tried to make "healthier" versions of some of my favorites. Needless to say, they were pretty much disasters. Some of my experiments have included Chicken Pot Pie - the sauce separated because I used Smart Balance and not butter, the crust didn't work either. Red Velvet Cake with Splenda and not sugar - frisbee anyone? Chocolate Chip Cookies - hockey pucks. I have decided that my comfort foods will remain that, comfort foods. I will eat them sparingly and enjoy them with all the fat and calories and yummy goodness.
I am a carnivore. I love a big, beefy steak! Prime Rib with horseradish is my anytime favorite. Just add a huge baked potato heaping with sour cream and butter and that would be my last meal. Unfortunately Prime Rib is one of the fattest steaks out there. You know who makes the best steak I've ever eaten? My Dad, he takes a Costco New York steak and makes it so juicy and flavorful. To put A-1 on his steaks is sacrilege.
Speaking of my dad, growing up when we would have cake, my dad would eat the cake portion and leave the frosting for last. I think that is how I developed one of my worst habits. I can sit down with a tub of frosting (cream cheese frosting is my favorite, followed by vanilla.) and eat a good 1/4 to 1/2 tub at a time. I still eat cake the way he does, the cake first, the frosting last. Hmmmmmm, yummy.
So, what am I to do? Healthy versions of old favorites just doesn't taste right. So, I am going to find flavorful and tasty new recipes. One of my favorites is to take Annies Organic Chili - spicy - and pour it over a salad with dollops of fat-free plain yogurt. The yogurt is a good substitute for sour cream when you are trying new things. It doesn't really work on the old favorites though. (There is one exception where it is actually better - mashed potatoes - my new old favorite is mashed potatoes with smart balance and plain, fat-free yogurt - it tastes much better and flavorful than the old way of butter and sour cream)
So, if anyone is out there that has a yummy, healthy, flavorful recipe that is quick and easy to make, please send it my way.
Next blog - my all-time favorite sweets - I was going to put it in this one, but I need some time to think and make sure I get most of them.....hahahhahaha
By the way - I have to admit I am very proud of myself. Yesterday I ate well during the day and ate a number of 0 point foods. When I left for work I made sure I had carrots and celery to munch on during the drive - yay for me! Then, when class was over, I was really hungry and the only thing open was McDonald's. I still had 12.5 points left for the day. I ate a cheeseburger (7), 1/2 a small fry (2.5) and still had points left over for the day. So, I have yet to use my weekly allowance (what I call uh-oh points.) And, today, we walked the kids to the library, into town and back to the house for an hour of exercise. The last 30 min sucked, because I was carrying Julie. I think it will be funny that when I lose 25 pounds, then pick Julie up, I will be the same weight I am today. Can't wait for that day!!!
I come from a long line of "emotional eaters." We eat when we are happy, sad, depressed, bored, excited. We celebrate with food, we console each other with food. We comfort ourselves with good old-fashioned comfort food. The food that our great-grandparents made and passed the recipes down, despite the fact that the recipes called for sticks of butter and pan-frying. The light and healthy foods just don't satisfy that deep-down need for comfort through food.
I have tried to make "healthier" versions of some of my favorites. Needless to say, they were pretty much disasters. Some of my experiments have included Chicken Pot Pie - the sauce separated because I used Smart Balance and not butter, the crust didn't work either. Red Velvet Cake with Splenda and not sugar - frisbee anyone? Chocolate Chip Cookies - hockey pucks. I have decided that my comfort foods will remain that, comfort foods. I will eat them sparingly and enjoy them with all the fat and calories and yummy goodness.
I am a carnivore. I love a big, beefy steak! Prime Rib with horseradish is my anytime favorite. Just add a huge baked potato heaping with sour cream and butter and that would be my last meal. Unfortunately Prime Rib is one of the fattest steaks out there. You know who makes the best steak I've ever eaten? My Dad, he takes a Costco New York steak and makes it so juicy and flavorful. To put A-1 on his steaks is sacrilege.
Speaking of my dad, growing up when we would have cake, my dad would eat the cake portion and leave the frosting for last. I think that is how I developed one of my worst habits. I can sit down with a tub of frosting (cream cheese frosting is my favorite, followed by vanilla.) and eat a good 1/4 to 1/2 tub at a time. I still eat cake the way he does, the cake first, the frosting last. Hmmmmmm, yummy.
So, what am I to do? Healthy versions of old favorites just doesn't taste right. So, I am going to find flavorful and tasty new recipes. One of my favorites is to take Annies Organic Chili - spicy - and pour it over a salad with dollops of fat-free plain yogurt. The yogurt is a good substitute for sour cream when you are trying new things. It doesn't really work on the old favorites though. (There is one exception where it is actually better - mashed potatoes - my new old favorite is mashed potatoes with smart balance and plain, fat-free yogurt - it tastes much better and flavorful than the old way of butter and sour cream)
So, if anyone is out there that has a yummy, healthy, flavorful recipe that is quick and easy to make, please send it my way.
Next blog - my all-time favorite sweets - I was going to put it in this one, but I need some time to think and make sure I get most of them.....hahahhahaha
By the way - I have to admit I am very proud of myself. Yesterday I ate well during the day and ate a number of 0 point foods. When I left for work I made sure I had carrots and celery to munch on during the drive - yay for me! Then, when class was over, I was really hungry and the only thing open was McDonald's. I still had 12.5 points left for the day. I ate a cheeseburger (7), 1/2 a small fry (2.5) and still had points left over for the day. So, I have yet to use my weekly allowance (what I call uh-oh points.) And, today, we walked the kids to the library, into town and back to the house for an hour of exercise. The last 30 min sucked, because I was carrying Julie. I think it will be funny that when I lose 25 pounds, then pick Julie up, I will be the same weight I am today. Can't wait for that day!!!
Monday, September 20, 2010
Weight Watchers
I am not here to promote and denounce any weight loss strategy. The only reason I am using WW is because my insurance will cover 70% of the cost, reimbursed, up to $175. That's about 6 months worth of WW. A pretty good incentive for me, especially with this economy and our household budget.
I like the POINTS plan. I am good at budgeting, and this plan lets me budget what I eat. So, I can splurge on the Big Mac, I just have to eat leaves and twigs to balance the budget. I am okay with that. Just don't give me bland diet food, I won't stay on it.
I've been on the plan a whole whopping 4 days. Have I lost any weight? I dunno. I put the scale away and will only let WW write down that nasty number. Do I feel any better, maybe. I know I am eating healthier. But, I don't think 4 days is enough to make a definitive conclusion.
I like the POINTS plan. I am good at budgeting, and this plan lets me budget what I eat. So, I can splurge on the Big Mac, I just have to eat leaves and twigs to balance the budget. I am okay with that. Just don't give me bland diet food, I won't stay on it.
I've been on the plan a whole whopping 4 days. Have I lost any weight? I dunno. I put the scale away and will only let WW write down that nasty number. Do I feel any better, maybe. I know I am eating healthier. But, I don't think 4 days is enough to make a definitive conclusion.
So, here is a picture of me, which isn't bad. It was taken earlier this summer with my daughter. It really shows the excess weight, the large arms, the roly-poly belly and the ROUND over-weight face.
I apparently have a lot to say, because I have another post rolling around in my head. So next post, how much I LOVE FOOD!
Blogging for Weight Loss
First of all, I am going to try to answer the reason, why? Why start a blog? I don't read other people's blogs, I don't really want people to be that delved into my life. So, again, why start a blog?
So, if I am the only one to ever read this blog, I am fine with that. If I find a friend or 2 out there who can talk me into eating just 1 serving, not the whole pint of Ben and Jerry's New York Super Fudge Crunch (life is too short to completely deny yourself!), I am good with that too.
Mind you, I don't want to be famous, I just want to feel healthy and have energy again.
So, here we go.
Next post - Weight Watchers
- I am hoping that it will help me document my progress.
- That it will keep me motivated when all I really want is a Big Mac, Fries and a Vanilla milkshake.
- That when I fall off the wagon, because I know I am going to, that this will be my motivation to keep going.
- So I won't be embarrassed when I meet former co-workers, acquaintances and I can see it in their faces - "Boy, has she gained a lot of weight"
- So that my children don't grow up with a fat mommy and unhappy mommy who can't play ball with them because she can't get off the ground.
So, if I am the only one to ever read this blog, I am fine with that. If I find a friend or 2 out there who can talk me into eating just 1 serving, not the whole pint of Ben and Jerry's New York Super Fudge Crunch (life is too short to completely deny yourself!), I am good with that too.
Mind you, I don't want to be famous, I just want to feel healthy and have energy again.
So, here we go.
Next post - Weight Watchers
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