No matter what I seem to do, I can't seem to stay motivated. I have tried many different external motivations since my internal motivation has seemed to tank, for the past 8 months. Sigh.
What am I going to do? I am not happy with where I am. Even though I am still wavering around the 40 pound loss mark, I feel fat and uncomfortable again, like I did when I had the extra weight on. I no longer feel good about my weight loss and how I look. I am dissatisfied with my progress. I don't want to give up, but how can I justify the $40 month for WW.
Yesterday, I went to the state paramedic exam where I ran into 2 ladies that have weight problems as well. One lady lost 115 lbs over 2 years and looks awesome. She said that she has 20 lbs to go. The other lady lost 30 and has plateau'd for a year. Ugh, I want to be like the first and not like the latter.
I am just frustrated.
On a positive note, I went to the gym this morning. Got a workout in, it wasn't the hardest or longest, but at least I did it. 20 min on the elliptical, 20 min of weight lifting and 20 min of walking (I walked to the gym and back). I also ate a healthy breakfast and am going to limit my fruit intake to 2 servings. The rest will have to be veggies.
I also am trying something new with tracking. Instead of my using weekly points, I am going to use my activity points first. My goal will be to try to keep all my weekly points and spend only my activity points. It seemed to work for today. Last night I said I could have a glass of wine if I woke up early and went to the gym. Well, that is what I did.
Until the next time, which hopefully will be tomorrow.
Sunday, July 31, 2011
Saturday, July 16, 2011
New Challenge
WOW - I lost 3.2 pounds last week!!!!!! I am 99% sure it was all water weight because Aunt Flo was in town at the last weigh-in. But, it goes to show that I did eat better, not ideally, but better.
I got to thinking about accountability and other things to help motivate me to lose weight. I realized that holding myself accountable is pretty dang hard and need an outside source to keep it going. And, an indefinite time period for the hostage dress accountability trial hasn't much helped.
After Thursday's meeting, Sandy and I brainstormed a new idea. We both agreed that we needed a short-duration challenge. And we both agreed it could not be scale based because of our 2 totally different body types. WW has check-offs your supposed to get called good health guidelines. When you meet your guidelines, you are awarded a smiley face in that category. Sandy I agreed on a challenge. The person who gets the most number of smiley-faces in a 2 week period wins a pedicure. Short, definite, with a goal in mind. By eating the guidelines, hopefully that will spur us into eating better and thus losing weight.
Part of the guidelines is to get physical activity everyday. I am going to have trouble with that one. I am more active than I used to be, that is for sure. I have a gym membership, that when I am not working 16 hour days, I do like to go to. I worked out Thursday evening and did weight lifting like my trainer advised. Saturday morning, I am still feeling the pain.....I definitely worked the muscles. So, here is a question, when I get home from work, should I go work out even though my muscles are still sore?
I am on shift at CAMS in Portland. Everything is going very well, and they may be shutting down hyperbaric operations within the week. DANG! I want to work some more because the money is freakin' awesome. They don't have another contract yet. It is going to be one of those feast-or-famine jobs. But, I will take the money while I can get it.
Later taters
I got to thinking about accountability and other things to help motivate me to lose weight. I realized that holding myself accountable is pretty dang hard and need an outside source to keep it going. And, an indefinite time period for the hostage dress accountability trial hasn't much helped.
After Thursday's meeting, Sandy and I brainstormed a new idea. We both agreed that we needed a short-duration challenge. And we both agreed it could not be scale based because of our 2 totally different body types. WW has check-offs your supposed to get called good health guidelines. When you meet your guidelines, you are awarded a smiley face in that category. Sandy I agreed on a challenge. The person who gets the most number of smiley-faces in a 2 week period wins a pedicure. Short, definite, with a goal in mind. By eating the guidelines, hopefully that will spur us into eating better and thus losing weight.
Part of the guidelines is to get physical activity everyday. I am going to have trouble with that one. I am more active than I used to be, that is for sure. I have a gym membership, that when I am not working 16 hour days, I do like to go to. I worked out Thursday evening and did weight lifting like my trainer advised. Saturday morning, I am still feeling the pain.....I definitely worked the muscles. So, here is a question, when I get home from work, should I go work out even though my muscles are still sore?
I am on shift at CAMS in Portland. Everything is going very well, and they may be shutting down hyperbaric operations within the week. DANG! I want to work some more because the money is freakin' awesome. They don't have another contract yet. It is going to be one of those feast-or-famine jobs. But, I will take the money while I can get it.
Later taters
Tuesday, July 12, 2011
Paper vs Computer Tracking
I decided to try something new on the last weigh in. I bought the ultimate 3 month tracker and wanted to try paper tracking. Well, I tried it, I tracked okay on it, but I really suck at it. I don't like having to wait to look something up on the computer or my phone, then having to transfer it back to paper.
I have tracked better, so maybe I will do a hybrid. I will use the paper when I don't have time to enter everything into the computer. The phone app sucks, so I don't like to add it that way.
How am I doing? Pretty well. I haven't had a chance to get a work out in since last Thursday. I simply haven't had time, or babysitters. This isn't an excuse, I truly didn't have the time. I miss it, and I am itching to get back to Zumba. Eating better has gone better. I've made wiser choices, bought a salad and fat free dressing for dinner. I only ate 1 cookie at lunch.
Well, I'm on shift and I better go get some sleep while I can.
I have tracked better, so maybe I will do a hybrid. I will use the paper when I don't have time to enter everything into the computer. The phone app sucks, so I don't like to add it that way.
How am I doing? Pretty well. I haven't had a chance to get a work out in since last Thursday. I simply haven't had time, or babysitters. This isn't an excuse, I truly didn't have the time. I miss it, and I am itching to get back to Zumba. Eating better has gone better. I've made wiser choices, bought a salad and fat free dressing for dinner. I only ate 1 cookie at lunch.
Well, I'm on shift and I better go get some sleep while I can.
Sunday, July 10, 2011
Accountability
Ever since I finished the WW reimbursement program from my insurance I have had a total lack of accountability. I don't want to go, I don't want to know that I gained weight, I forgot (conveniently), I overslept. I figured out I needed someone to keep me accountable, to ask, how did you do today? To ask me if I chose wisely, remind me why I want to lose weight.
I have some external motivation, the helicopter job. I also have a new job that is on a construction site. I can only eat the food I bring because there is nothing around. But, all I do is sit around, because we are the stand by crew. BTW I am getting paid a RIDICULOUS amount to sit here and type. I do honest work, for all of 20 minutes at a time. Saturdays are time and a half and Sundays are double-time.
Anyway, I digress. I need a WW Nazi for a while to keep me on track until my insurance accountability stuff kicks in again. Anyone want to be that person?
I have some external motivation, the helicopter job. I also have a new job that is on a construction site. I can only eat the food I bring because there is nothing around. But, all I do is sit around, because we are the stand by crew. BTW I am getting paid a RIDICULOUS amount to sit here and type. I do honest work, for all of 20 minutes at a time. Saturdays are time and a half and Sundays are double-time.
Anyway, I digress. I need a WW Nazi for a while to keep me on track until my insurance accountability stuff kicks in again. Anyone want to be that person?
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