Not Doing So Good

I am a woman of extremes.

I cannot find the happy medium in anything I do. This diet is not exception. It has not been a good 2 days, I have gone over points on both days and have not exercised.

I went out to dinner with my husband last night, which was wonderful. I ate all my points plus a few weekly points, which I feel so guilty using. I taught class all day today, and was busy, that I didn't eat very much. By the time Lori brought down dinner, prime rib, twice baked mashed potatoes, artichoke dip and cherry cheesecake, I was screwed. I tried so hard to stay on plan, but I still ended up eating way too much. And I went over my daily points again. I feel I've touched too many weekly points and it is only Saturday. I still have to make it to Thursday.

I gave myself permission to eat, that is the problem. And now that I am eating, I don't feel like I can stop. I am out of points for the day and it is still only 6 p.m. and I am on shift. I can't workout to earn points right now. If I get too busy tonight, how am I going to make it through?

I have healthy food with me, maybe I will be able to eat it tonight, without falling into tempation again.

Tomorrow is a new day, maybe some exercise and getting back to eating the way I was, maybe a little more, will be the answer. I dunno, I feel a little lost.